OMG did I really just say that?!

It was a horrible, unfiltered moment, and I was immediately sorry I said it.

When I blurt, I really blurt. It was so inappropriate I hurt my own feelings.

There was a very attractive man in a movie we were watching, as a family. All of a sudden, I said out loud, “I would like to see him naked.” A fleeting thought. My eyes got huge. I was shocked and immediately so sorry. Greg said, “I’m right here!” and laughed a little.

Greg and I have been married 36 years. Anyone who knows us, knows my husband is the stars in my eyes, the only man I would ever want to spend my life with. I am HAPPILY married. I am still a sexual being. We often joke about things like this. But I am such an overthinker.

I apologized to my husband profusely for being so rude. Then he said, “It was rude.” And I would never want to hurt his feelings. I later found out he was joking, but I so often don’t understand jokes or sarcasm. I thought he was serious. He knows he is the only man I will EVER love.

I cried in his lap with my arms around his neck for so long that he said, “Okay, can we be done?” I still cried more later. Veronica gets me. She is the one who said, “I hate when I hurt my own feelings.” And that is exactly what I did!

To learn more about our lives together through the first 12 yrs of our healing journey to feel validated and understood, read my brain injury educational book titled,

A Miracle a Day, One Day at a Time: Hope after Traumatic Brain Injury

https://store.bookbaby.com/book/a-miracle-a-day-one-day-at-a-time

Have a blessed week, and do not overthink things.